Why would you, unless.....?

I know that's what you'll do, stab me where it will hurt,

no grief in your eyes, as you see the blood spurt.

You know how I am, I'll bleed to death in your quest,

But it's a game you must win, you will ace this dirty conquest.

So you'll still do everything you can, to break me,

To see me begging for mercy, begging to be free.

Free from the pain you give me, free from this heartache,

There's just so much it can bleed, just so much it can take.

It's broken in an instant, with you having walked all over,

Bitter with pain, pangs noone can ever discover.

Drowned within it's own depth, it's scared to look up,

Broken by a joke for fun, a really unfair setup.

Vowing it will get better, without you by my side,

A day will come reckoning, it will get calmer, the tide.

You'll cry someday too, in agony and despair,

Wishing you hadn't trampled wild, realising what's fair.

I won't be around to see it, nor care enough to console,

You nearly killed my heart, its peace as you then stole.

I hope not to get more bitter, more torn into pieces with this pain,

Till someday you wish it were just a bad dream, try to turn it all back...In vain!

Lost in the Deluge

Loud claps of thunder, a dark red sky,

I wake up from my trance, as lightning flashes me by,

Large drops of rain, fighting for space,

Disturbing my thoughts, cutting them loose from the chase.

The soft whispering wind, grows heavier and louder,

My wavering thoughts are now crushed to a powder.

Perched against the downpour, with arms wide open,

I try to grab my mind, but my heart it’s stolen.

Carrying love from far away, a lonely distant voice,

Touches my lonely soul, while drowning all the noise.

A heart that feels my pangs, asking me to feel its pain,

It’s as broken as I am, tears running in each vein.

Refusing to succumb to the deluge, my eyes are shut tight,

I feel nothing but numb pain, the dark eclipses all light.

Shattered into pieces, a heartache we share,

Soft as fur inside, an iron mask on the outside we wear.

The rain that breaks our peace brings us together tonight,

We carelessly succumb to the call, giving in without a fight.

Hearts that cry alone, but smile as one in the rain,

Our incompleteness begins to fill, the sorrow too will wane.

I breathe softly but surely as I mock the thunderous sound,

I’ve lost my heart to this voice, but a new strength I have found.

The night cries itself to sleep, as the rain gives in,

Densely dark around, with a single flame burning within.

Do you Stop Loving?

Long and dreary, the road stretches on.
A warm dusk it is, but the warmth in your heart is gone.

There's pain in your eyes, disbelief on your face,
That dream has escaped, you've lost the chase.

Dragging your feet, trudging along,
There's no end in sight, you're no more that strong.

The shadow of your past trails close behind,
The wounds are still fresh, they have been unkind.

Desperate with hope, it nudges you to answer,
Will the pain ever go? Does it ever get better?

You've tried to go back, you've spent hours crying,
Your love seems like a lie, but do you stop loving?

Troubled Bliss

Warm like a flame, with the blue chill of ice,
You get sucked into it anyways, no chance of a choice.

It's the perfect paradox, the refute of the sane,
The irony of living, the refuge of the insane.

Silence gets deafening, clamorous noises begin to soothe,
You see what doesn't exist, defying every truth.

The rumble of a rollercoaster ride, with the calm of the still seas,
You need sleep for that sweet dream, yet sleep is what will tease.

Waking up to the sunrise, that brand new day,
but sulking at each sunset, wanting to melt in each ray.

No pain more numbing, yet no emotion sweeter than this,
Love will drive those senses wild, to a state of troubled bliss!

Ever been in love?

If there is a feeling that can come close to the innocent exhilaration of running in the open with your arms free as a child, it is the feeling of being in love.

For the first time, for the millionth time, it doesn't matter, it's still the same.
The magic does surprisingly recur.

Maybe with a lesser intensity, maybe as ephemeral as a bubble, but it does happen!

Everything...

The butterflies in the stomach, that constant whirlpool inside of you, waiting to explode, the goose-flesh, those billion thoughts that steal every waking moment, that hopeless attempt to try not to smile, the magic is always there!

Its hard to ignore it, harder to escape from it and hardest to contain it, but you somehow do, for awhile atleast, until the madness takes over!

Till then all you can do, is ride the wave, enjoy the spurt while it lasts, till by a poor stroke of luck, dark reality hits you hard between the eyes...till the magic fades away!

Some things never heal

In a dream, so pristine and tranquil,
She lay unperturbed, unaware of the still.
Asleep to the world, awake to her dream,
The trance would soon break, soon she would scream.
The heartless world won't cease to cause harm,
Deaf to her cries, ignorant to her pain, but in themselves, Calm.
It's been too often now, it'd been too long,
She still crumbles easily, not even close to growing strong.
The blood flows thicker, tears don't see an end,
It's happened again, this heart will never mend.
Time makes her unwary now, soon she will sleep,
waiting to be re struck, in pain , back to her trance so deep.

The Sweetest Pain

In love again, yet so distraught,
The lie is out, I have been caught.
Its more than still waters, running ever so deep,
Dreams are real, I’ve lost the art of sleep.
Like a million echoes, struggling to come out,
This seems like ‘it’, not just a passing bout.
Hard to hide, harder to contain,
It aches deep within, but is yet the sweetest pain!